School has started in todai!
I've been so busy these 2 weeks >_< moving, going to school, going to said school's parties etc. And I finally understand what iekodanus
said about how talking to Japanese people is tiring.
1. I don't know if it's just me, but I really find girls who talk with high pitched voices very stressful to talk with. I can't keep up with them.
2. Everytime I talk to someone, they ask me about Singapore and I end up repeating myself a lot of times. Okay, that is only true for the first few times I talk to somebody, but it makes me feel like they are only treating me as a ~foreign~ student
3. The girls are very conscious about boy-girl relationships. Girls only talk/sit with girls in class mostly. And conversations with guys get a little awkward sometimes.
4. Maybe this is the same for most people, but I find that the people here don't seem to be very enthusiastic in their friendships. I can understand that we all already have our besties from highschool, but I don't find the people here as "on" as the people I knew in jc. It's always "Hey come over to my place next time" "sure!" and next time is like, when?? I'll make it a point to bring that up again soon though. But even when I was in gaidai and talking to some people, they were pretty ready to invite me to their rooms but we never actually went there.
5. Which hence leads me to my next problem. It might be just me but I feel like there's this wall (cliche yes yes) in between me and whoever I'm talking to? Like I'm not actually behaving like how I would usually behave but trying to say something that they might actually find interesting? and that they are trying to to do the same too. Not that it's bad to try to keep the conversation interesting. But it's not like I can talk to them about "omgz you <insert drama name here> is damn retarded hahaha" because 1. I can't say omg in japanese 2. yabai/omoshiroi isn't really like retarded 3. I will be labelled as some otaku and probably get strange looks. I also can't go like "Eh omg I beat eggwhites to stiff peaks by hand yesterday!!!" because it will be too random. Okay lah maybe I am just too random.
6. MONEY. I am in deep shit. I spent too much money buying my mattress/frdige/oven/curtains/iron that I am (going to be soon) broke. I wouldn't have been in such bad shape if I hadn't considered deffering for one year, but I signed the form for deferring and hence my scholarship money will be delayed for another half a month. Omg how how how??
Anyway. I found myself hanging out with a girl who stayed in China through highschool most of the time in class, and other than that, other foreign students. I know I shouldn't be doing this since I'm actually studying in Japan, right. But it is just so energy consuming to talk to Japanese people. :(
I really started to appreciate being in gaidai for 1 year after coming to todai. Everyone was foreign, everyone was ready to accept each other's differences. Even the Japanese people in gaidai were more open and I guess to an extent, a little crazy haha. oh well!
Going to sleep now. Gotta go for a dance practice tomorrow at 9 in the morning! Maybe I'll be able to make some friends through CCA :D!!